God is Good

Jesus, I'm sorry, do you really read this?
Lord, why, I don't understand?
God, learn that this is another side of
Christ, it was bound to happen anyway.


I guess I picked a swell time to pick this thing back up.

the cool side

one side of the pillow smells like home
the other side, shame

the room reeks of frustration






Really, jesus fucking christ, I don't mind pleasing you but FUCKING RECIPROCATE OR LEAVE MY ROOM SO I CAN SLEEP.

Useless

devoured
molested
clutching a tit
isn't all it's cracked up to be
but you've left your mark

remorse
feels no emotions but remorse
now that it's been done
will you be a different person
one event can't change you
please let it change you
no remorse

spare the rod and spoil the cunt
make them feel your shame
pitiful motions back and forth
uninspired
remorse

you are devoured
you are molested

in time

I wish
I had
more time
to be happy.

I'm so glad
no-one is here
to see me
all alone.

disgust

more time past
hope builds
disgust

(( ))

So if you haven't noticed, I don't really post anymore.
I don't really have much to say these days,
so I'm just telling you that I won't be using this anymore.
I think I'll come back to it eventually,
whenever I'm having another bout of depression,
but that will probably be a couple of months,
I hope at least.




But at the same time, I kind of hope it's sooner.

I didn't post for the entirety of May.

That is all.