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I've a foul taste in my mouth,
no drink to wash it out.
That's alright,
I can ignore it

The future is unsure,
but it's not as bad,
as I had thought before.
Not quite so bleak,
just a little more hope
for myself and a few others.
I'm not sure where this is going.
That's alright.
I hope I can leave soon.
I hope I can sleep soon.
I hope I can find out where this is going.
I'm feeling quite tired.
That's alright.
It means I can sleep.

The future is unsure,
that's alright,
I can ignore it.




This rhymed for a bit.
I thought that was funny.

~ ~ ~

For a few brief moments,
I could see everything with a clarity
I've never known before.

Now that moment is over,
and everything has been enveloped
in a thick dark haze.

Moments of clarity are fleeting at best,
but for those few brief seconds
I could truly say;

everything was beautiful, and nothing hurt

^ ^ ^

Now I've found out that
I was not as alone as I had come to believe.
I always said
I don't know what I'm doing anymore,
I never knew
what I was doing
to begin with.

Finally, I do know what I'm doing here;
I'm waiting.

It's been six months now,
and I know it could be six more
before everything is right,
but that's fine.
I'll wait until I can find you
wherever you are,
and tell you what I need to tell you.
I just hope by the time I find you,
it's not too late.

` ` `

I'm not sure what I'm doing here anymore.
Is there really even a point in staying?
I don't know who I'm writing this for.
Of course I do but they'll never see it.
I've been feeling ever so tired,
I think I may sleep for a while.
Maybe when I awaken there will be someone here.
No, there won't.
I don't know why I'm writing this at all.
Of course I do, but I'll still say I don't.
Lying to myself seems like the best thing to to now.
I think I may go to bed now.
My stomach feels upset.
Whatever happened to everyone anyway?
I guess they all got tired too.
Maybe I'm just late.
Maybe they're all waiting.
I sure hope so.
I know they aren't,
but lying to myself seems like the best thing to to now.
Maybe I'll just keep doing that.
Maybe I'll just go to sleep.